feeling helpless

my summer break back here is almost over.in two days.
this post wont do justice as to how much the past two months has been like.
im just not that great in expressing myself.
come to think of it,three months is equivalent to one semester in uni.
its hard to leave this to go back there for three long months.
i've always been a justdoit kind of person.not that nike paid me to endorse the slogan.
a lot of times,i do things on impulse and rarely think of the consequence before action.
live without any regrets right?
i used to question the 'what ifs' when i was younger.the older i got,the more impulsive i got.because i know that if i were to wonder about the aftermath,i would not do it.
as we all know,what normally follows a disaster is not pretty.so i dont think about the notsopretty part.

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my mom made (i spelt it maid the first time) me barley again because my nose keeps bleeding.its like the fourth time already in two months.its quite normal when she fusses over me like im the queen.sometimes i take it for granted.

she is thin again,which is worrying.
it was like some emo-fest last sunday.

while i had been worrying about my other trivial issues, i had obviously neglected whats in front of me.